Nissan 20, 5768, 4/25/2008
I read your blog regularly on Arutz7, from my laptop or my work computer from sunny Florida.
I merited studying in Israel for a year, many moons ago, but I ended up back here in the States. Now ironically, my son is moving to Eretz Yisrael.
I crave to be back there. I relate so much to the inspiring words and pictures from your blog, and feel like a fish, slowly suffocating in the oppressive atmosphere of this gut wrenching galus! I feel it - I mean I REALLY feel it. Every time I leave my house and even when I am sitting in it! Something just doesn’t feel right. I remember so fondly my days in Eretz. Although sometimes frustrating, they were fulfilling, just being there, in Jerusalem, Tel Aviv, Eilat, wherever, I just felt, well, at home.
I don’t wish to maarich bemilim so I will get the point. I worry SO much about how I will make a living there. The reason being that every time I tell a fellow yid (and I am talking about "frum" Jews here!) in Florida that I wish to make Aliyah, I am greeted with the same old response, as if like a broken record, as follows:
"What do you want to do that for?", "How will you make money there", "How will you support your family?" AND "I know SO many people who went on Aliyah and just couldn’t make it and came back home" etc etc, ad naseum!
But Tzvi, these words affect me, in a negative way, regardless of all the words I read and Torah sources I study to prove conclusively that a Jew has an OBLIGATION to live in Eretz Yisrael, I still have this worry in the pit of my stomach.
I am not wealthy. Indeed I struggle to make a good living here in Florida, BUT I am comfortable, with my wife and new born boy (he is 12 days old today!) and I do make enough money to support them. I worry how I would do the same in Israel. I tell myself not to worry, to be strong and have emuna and bitachon in Hashem, but then I read some other article in the BBC or one of your talkbackers condemning the "evil Jewish state," or talking about the lunacy of Olmert and Israel’s loony left, leading to a path of destruction. I wonder if it is responsible to leave the relative calm of Florida, when at any moment the government of Israel might give away, Jerusalem, the Golan, perhaps even my new home in Israel if I ever could afford one.
As you can ascertain, I am confused and pressured, but a voice inside me years to make the move. Can you offer me any words of advice or chizuk that might help me in my quandary? Is there anything I can do to make things easier, can you assure or reassure me?
I’m not sure what I need, perhaps just a kick in the pants. I hope you can offer some words of wisdom.
Best wishes meantime, and Moed TOV!
Confused Florida Jew