When Iyar brings light- Yair
Yehudit TayarB"H Yehudit Tayar lives with her family in Bet Horon in the Benjamin...
Shavua tov- yes with so many memories and so many memorials for our friends and family who fell in action or were murdered because we are Jews, with pain and sadness and prayers for the celebrations following Memorial Day will represent the true gratitude that we are able to fight for our country and even pay the price to do so.
For me and my family this month - especially this week represents the enormous contrast between joy and grief. Aside from all of the pain for our loved ones whom we lost we had a miracle on Memorial Day when as the siren was sounding I was giving birth to our fourth child B"H. It is truly impossible to describe the feeling as I heard the siren being used to standing attention during this siren and here I am giving birth to a new Jewish soul - and where? Sha're Zeddek Hospital right near Mt. Hertzel and the Military Cemetary.
My beloved husband, Ami and I decided to call our new son, Yair in memory of Avraham Yair Stern HY"D who was the head of the LEHI Freedom Fighters who was murdered by the British. Yair meaning "he will bring light" and Yair if you turn the letters around IYAR it is the name of the month he was born.
The night after Yair was born the entire country celebrated and it is our "joke" that each year Israel celebrates Yairs' birthday-flags, cermonies and all included.
Memorial Day for us is one with the extra element of grief especially since the destruction of Gush Katif and the expulsion of our families including our loved ones who were removed from their graves and who all of our families were forced to re-bury making the nightmare even more painful and horrific.
Tomorrow I will go down to Nitzan to be with my beloved friends the Hillburgs at the cemetary where Yochanan HY"D was re-buried after the destruction of Gush Katif. Even to this day I find it impossible to comprehend what was done to us and our families in the destruction of the Gush - and so painful and heartbreaking to stand over the graves of Yochanan and Yisrael HY"D two of our young people from the Gush who fell in action protecting our heritage and Nation.
Daily I say Tehillim - Psalms in memory of our loved ones who fell in action or were murdered and daily -not just this month I pray that HE will bring the light to our Nation and that we will be deserving of it.